I want the taxes to just go away.  Having them hanging over my head sucks the joy out of life like nothing else.

Ever since we got to the point with our taxes where numbers were measured in tens and hundreds of thousands... and that we needed to start sending out multiple 1099's and depreciating several pieces of equipment and filing more than five additional forms along with the 1040... I've suggested, pleaded, begged, thrown tantrums, whined, offered sexual favors, you name it, lol... for my husband to agree to hire an outside bookkeeper.  He can't see the way clear to "waste"  (AHEM!) that money when I probably do just as good of a job.

Except I don't. 

I've told him this.  I've said, time and time again, that I do NOT do as good of a job as a professional bookkeeper would do for us.  I know I miss all kinds of deductions we could take, loopholes we could find, laws I'm not aware of that could potentially save us thousands.  My records are adequate, but they aren't the perfect, find-it-right-this-second filing system I'd ideally like to have simply because I do not know how to set things up to  accomplish that goal.  Instead, everything goes into a drawer and gets sorted at the end of the year, and I go insane doing it.

I've tried to do it bits at a time over the course of the year, but that DOES NOT WORK as things get lost or destroyed, or I forget what I did on them and have to go back and do them all over again anyway.

Sigh.  My world for a professional bookkeeper to whom I could just deliver all of the receipts, check stubs, etc. and let them deal with it. I'd like to let them cut checks for certain farm expenses too... give me one less thing to worry about.  It would be such a weight off me to have someone else responsible for all of that. 

As it is now, it's like an ever constant gloom surrounding me, casting a pall over everything.  I wake up in the morning happy, until I remember I need to work on the taxes.  I look forward to playing with the kids, eating a good meal, playing on my computer... until I remember the taxes still aren't done and then I feel sick.  I  know I'm procrastinating like mad and that doesn't help matters in the least, but I have such a visceral aversion to looking at all of that paperwork.  It's gotten worse and worse every year and I get more and more depressed about how much I despise it.

Can't I just write a check for 20% of our income and call it done?   Why must it be such torture? 

Why is it that things that are supposed to be "good" for me make me feel so horrible?

Right now, I have a killer headache from trying to stop drinking so much cream-and-sugar laden coffee, I'm so very uncomfortably bloated with gas from trying to eat more vegetables, and I am very high-strung, cranky and shaky from hunger because I'm trying to diet in general.

All I want to do is eat a pizza.  Followed by brownies and coffee.  Then, I'd be mellow again and I'd love the world and everyone in it. 

Right now?  I kind of want to tell the world to gtfo.  *rage*.  

I was in a screenshot-taking mood this morning, lol... so here are a few pictures of my main character in my World of Warcraft game, a level 80 human mage. 



 

Here she is on her nether drake mount. It took a while to get that thing, lol!


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Meme stolen from javabean_dreams  

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Why are plain flannel nightgowns for little girls so hard to find? Why must they all have Hannah Montana or Tinker Bell on them? I WANT PLAIN PINK FLANNEL DAMMIT.

Also, apparently there is no longer such a thing as a plain, normal Ken doll. Remember Ken? Normal Ken? The Ken that came packaged in jeans and a T shirt and had moulded hair? He's gone bye-bye. Now there's only Camper Family Ken and Fashionista Ken, or Ken as Edward Cullen from Twilight. O_o

And I am sad because no matter what I do I'll never be very good at World of Warcraft. My internet latency is too high and there's nothing I can do about it because I have no good options for service where I am. Don't get me wrong, sucking in and of itself doesn't bother me, because I'm not competitive at all... but in a game like WoW, you have to be really good or else no one wants to play with you. It's jr. high gym class all over again and that's just... ugh, who wants that? So, to make myself feel better, I picked up a copy of World Adventures and I'm going to try to give Sims 3 another go.

Yes. :(

Ok, so we've decided to buy a Wii as a family gift this year, and get the kids a few games for it (along with some other small things.) However, I am soooo overwhelmed when it comes to buying a Wii and all the different parts available for it. I know I'm going to end up buying the wrong thing or else stuff I don't need, lol.

So what is essential for Wii operation?

I had a dream last night where my WoW character died, and a member of my guild pleaded for her life with the Grim Reaper (like in the Sims 2) and won. First dream I've been able to remember in months and it combines my two favorite games. Can't ask for better than that, lol.

I would love, love love it if WoW was set up more like the Sims in some ways. I mean... if the characters can clobber and kill each other, why can't they hug each other for "real?" Why can't the food look like the actual food they're eating? I know it's possible, it's just Blizzard didn't put those little details in... yet. I still have hope for it... and for more hairstyles. :)

And my dream? I think it came about because for the first time I was shocked back to life with the gnomish army knife by a guildmate who is an engineer. Way cool. Still... the Grim Reaper showing up would be sort of awesome.

:D

Wow it's been a while since I've written anything really, lol... but I'm still around...



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I hate to use the term "date" because that implies romance... and I don't want that, but just to go have lunch or go sightseeing, etc... I'd love to take Ayla from the Earth's Children series.  :)   I'm sure, being a Cro-Magnon woman, she might be a bit freaked out by modern society, but she's a strong character and I'm sure she would be able to cope.   Besides, she's already seen it in spirit visions in the story, so she shouldn't be too shocked, lol.

I'd love to show her how human society has changed, both for the better and for the worse.

Then she and I would go track down Ms. Auel and whine for the next book, lol! 

 

These are eggs laid by the chickens I bought this past spring... so far in this hatch, we have one baby chick and two "pips" (eggs that have holes pecked in them but the chicks aren't completely out yet.) 

I'll keep you updated!!  OMG I feel like a chicken grandma, lol!

I have to admit I'm shocked that people can make videos using World of Warcraft. The characters have much more limited animations, and I just don't think the whole interface is conducive to movie making. However, I've come across a few good ones and I'd like to share them!

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I hate that Dr. Phil now comes on at 3:00pm vs. 10:00am.

That is all.

It involves the World of Warcraft game... and an apparent nude patch. :P

It's very silly and pointless, but sometimes you just need to watch something like that every now and then. :D

Alaina (who turned 5 in May) :   "Look, Mommy... there's some mushrooms!" 

Me: "Yes, those are mushrooms.  Don't touch them!" 

Alaina: "Why, because frogs jumped on them?"

Me:  "What?"  (thinking, WTF frogs???)

Alaina:  "You know, Mommy... when frogs jump on them, it makes them poison."

Me:  "Oh, is that what does it?"

Alaina:  "Yes.  But when they're on the pizza, the frogs can't jump on them, so we can eat those."  

Me:  "Oh."  

I walked into the kitchen to find my 4 year old literally with her hand in the cookie jar.  She saw me looking at her with my "Mom" look, and proceeded to calmly keep rooting in the cookie jar for her prize.

Smiling impishly, she then said, "Mom, this is called stealing." 


:D 

I don't know what's with me today.  I am so irritable.  Everything is getting on my nerves, and that's really not like me. 

I just checked the calendar, and Aunt Flo isn't supposed to arrive for another week, so it's not even that.  

I don't get it.

Meh... I think I'm going to go to bed early tonight.   :(

Now that my chickens are nearly mature, all kinds of "flock behaviors" are starting.

For example, the dominant rooster, Colonel (seen below with some of his "girls") will NOT let the other mature rooster, Rascal, mate with any of the hens. He will literally FLY across the chicken yard to knock him off the hen's back. It's the funniest damn thing I've seen in a long time. :D




Here is Colonel surrounded by some of his harem. :) I think he's so pretty!

I don't know.  What's it *supposed* to look like?  :P

And isn't part of it supposed to be red?  I thought all Rorschach blots had a red area... hmm...

In all seriousness, to me it looks like a crazed mutant fox with four eyes and a tongue sticking out.  Especially because I think the "tongue" is supposed to be red, even though some would view it as a penis... but that's okay, because I guess there's supposed to be a sexual "view" to every Rorschach as well.  XD

One of my chickens laid her first egg yesterday!!!

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